Friday, March 27, 2009

baby news

ok, so here is a little background, for about the first 8 weeks of my pregnancy I was getting really bad sharp pain on my Uterus (the site of my previous c-sections, only deeper tissue) I went to the doctor who sent me for blood work, and an early pregnancy ultrasound - her only thoughts were tubal, or multiples since it was too early for any real growing pains.

I did go for both the ultrasound, and the blood work, and while I was getting the ultrasound the tech left a few times, then returned. In the end she showed me a baby heart fluttering inside of me. Since I walked out of this appointment with no information, and having seen a baby heart I had a feeling that there were 2, but then no phone call from the doctor. I did already have the first prenatal book, which was today, about 13 weeks along, and I was revealed some news, news that she got right after my ultrasound, but since it doesn't change anything chose to wait for my appointment to talk to me and talk in person.

I was pregnant with twins, in fact they would have been identical because my egg had split, and they were both in the same placental sac - the problem is that one of these little guys heart never started beating, so it is being reabsorbed by my placenta. Sad, that one isn't going to join us, but like I said, I have just known for a month, I just knew. The problem with all of this is that it would have been an identical twin, identical DNA and the heart never started beating, so now the doctor is sending me for some special genetic testing to see if there is something more going on.

For me this does not change anything I am a mom, and I love my children - all of them, even if that child has a genetic disorder and I deal with downsyndrome or some other difficulty. These tests will help prepare me, if that is indeed the case, but our baby will be loved for, and cared for by us, and family in our home regardless of the outcome!

11 comments:

Debbi said...

WOW. Bombshell to read! I am sending good vibes your way, knowing that you'll be a fantastic mother no matter what lies ahead.

Hugs.

Jared and Liam Craig said...

i started crying!!! We had simulaar things with Angie!!! good luck hun!

Bree Johnson said...

Wow don't know where to start. Thats hard. I hope everything works out- and if you need me at all I'm there- I heart you- really i'll drive to peters to get you a shake :)

Kat said...

Hey I am totally thinking about you and youre in my prayers,
Lv Kat:)

Laura said...

wow....I hope everything is well. I feel sad for the loss of your little one. That must have been tough. You are so strong that I know you will be able to get through anything that comes your way. I am thinking of you guys!

houseofhud said...

I hope everything goes well with the tests. Thinking of you!

Marie said...

Oh wow. That is a bit of shock. I'm praying for you and your little one!

Carla said...

So sorry to hear that. It's heartbreaking news. But as you said, the tests will help prepare you for whatever is to come.
You are in our thoughts!!!

Ashley Dawn said...

In the past I really have found that tests like these are very precautionary. I had a friend whose baby was actually diagnosed as Downs Syndrome, but when she was born, there was nothing wrong at all. I hope all goes well and that you can deal well with whatever news comes. I'm sorry for the loss of the twin. That's SO hard. I hope this other little one just gets stronger and stronger and is wonderfully healthy and brings you great joy!!

Keshia Larsen said...

I had a scare with Nixon, and I know how hard it can be to just wait and see... but I had the same outlook... it doesn't matter except for preperation. Let me know how we can help if needs be!

Susie said...

You have an amazing attitude. I hope it all works out for you. Thinking of you.